Trying to get over someone, is like trying to forget someone you've never met. That's exactly how I feel now. I thought I was slowly getting over you but I was wrong. It takes longer than I thought it would be. Seeing your smile and all.Just having you ruffle my hair, and feeling your warmth when you touch me, I know it might seem weird that I'm writing this but it shows how hard it is for me to get over you. I guess last Thursday might be the last time we'll ever see each other. And soon, I have to move on in the end.

Had a dream last Saturday and it was about you... I can't really remember what it was but I know that it had something to do with our friendship. Apparently, we were really close friends but we drifted apart because you found someone. I can still see it clearly like it really happened. All the touches and smiles that happened in the dream felt like reality. I wished I was really there with you but dreams are meant to be dreams...

Saw you last Monday. Just for a moment, I finally had a smile on my face. Eventhough it was just a short meeting, it still feels like I had a million butterflies in my stomach. Just that simple touch of your fingers on my face made me have goosebumps. I really miss the fun times we had together. The memories of those times will forever be etched in my memory...

So, I saw you again today. Somehow, I always thought that I would get over you sooner than I expected but I was wrong cause I just can't seem to stop looking at you. Gahh, what's wrong with me? I'm so confused, I guess I thought I was over you cause I didn't see nor joke around with you for nearly two weeks but it sucks. You have no idea what you did to me. But somehow I just wish you knew so that it won't hurt that much...

I guess it takes time to get over someone. It's hard but I'm trying my best. It helps when I actually have something to distract myself with. I have to give credit to this one actor, BooBoo Stewart. Eventhough he's just an actor, just by looking at his face makes me forget about whatever that's bothering me. And that includes you. Sometimes I wish the rumours about you having a girlfriend is not true cause I can't bear to see you with another girl. But if she makes you happy, then I guess I'll be happy for you. How, I wish sometimes I don't have to wake up from my dreams only to face the nightmares of my reality...

P.S. I'll just put
a picture of him here cause I can't bear to think about you anymore.

Confused

Some days you seem so close
like you stand right before me
But then the next day you seem so far
like each other we can't see,
Each day is like a roller coaster
with my stomach turning upside down
You stand there looking
but yet you don't utter a sound,
I feel so confused and
my heart is being torn at its seams
And every night that I sleep
you seem to linger in my dreams,
Every time I look at you
I forget all my thoughts
And right then and there
it's you that my heart has sought,
Every time I hope
it turns into something bad
So for right now I'll stop thinking
And maybe things won't end up sad.

- Jennifer Woooters -

Letting Go

I can't take it anymore. Everytime I see your face, I feel like crying. Just the mention of your name mades me tear up. I can't bear it when other people talk to you, cause I know I can never be that close. I know that we're not together but it still hurts. Why should I even care? You never cared about me all this while. Maybe it's time for me to let you go. I wish it would be as easy as ABC but that will never bound to happen. True love doesn't have a happy ending, because true love never ends. Letting go is one way of saying I love you...

Confusion

I'm confused once again. I can't figure out my feelings for you. Is it real or is it merely a crush? Day by day, I can't help thinking about you. I know it's only been a month but the image of you still haunts me, especially your smile. I really wish you knew how I feel for you but I still can't say anything cause I don't want to ruin our friendship. I know I've said this a million times but I guess i just have to make my point clear. Now I'm even more confused cause I kept on thinking about this other person. But I guess it doesn't matter right cause you'll never know how I feel for you...

Smile by Rin Schiffer

I remembered your first smile
The smile that saves my life
From the edge of darkness
The smile that dry up my tears
And scares away the evil around me

Your smile,
Is the smile that makes up my day
Into the most beautiful day
I could ever wish for

I remembered
On the day you left
I cried so hard until
I could hear nothing
Except for your last word
‘smile’

Smile,
That is the word that portrays you
The word that I use to describe you
The word that reminds me of you
The word that I make as a part
Of me since you left

Smile,
That is the most likable action of yours
The action that could make
The saddest person happy
The action that I carry out every day
The action that always reminds me of you

Smile…

I wish you knew how addicted I am to see you smile...

I miss you, I really do, but I can't say anything to you... I miss the day when I first met you, when I first talk to you, when I first smiled at you, when I first hugged you. I miss all the times that we had together but most of all, I miss you the most...