Live Like We're Dying

So the world is suppose to end tomorrow according to the Mayans and the people that believed the prophecy. As for me, well it'll just be a normal Friday where I'm going to hangout with my friends to celebrate my bestie's birthday. Turning seventeen at last. I can say that time flew by so fast like just two weeks ago I was just done with my last exam paper and here I am planning my outing for tomorrow. I duno what the future holds for me but I hope the people that I care about will be in it. I guess that's all for now. If the world is gonna end tomorrow well I can say that I had a great year behind me. And I'm gonna live it like it's my last day.

Angel To You ( Devil To Me )

I dunno why but I just feel like dedicating this post to my best friend. I know it's kinda lame but I can't help it cause I miss him a lot. So why the title? well, let's see. The first time I met him, he looked like the most innocent thing on the face of this planet. He was quiet and shy and not at all talkative. But that totally changed when I got to know him better. He's a loud and bubbly person and fun to be around with. He's shy to the people that he'd never met before and would just keep his mouth shut. That's why to most people he's like an angel. But whenever he's around me well he's a totally different person. he's totally himself and I know that I can be myself in front of him too without having the fear of getting criticized or looked down upon. I'm very lucky to have met a great friend like him. He's my thunder buddy and I totally appreciate it. I hope our friendship can last all the way through all the obstacles that would come our way cause what ship never sinks? Friendship. Thank you for always being there for me whenever I feel like I'm alone in this world and thank you for understanding me. I love you thunder buddy and I hope we stay friends forever. Thunder buddies for life!

I Miss You

You know the feeling you get when you miss someone terribly and you can't do anything about it? Yeah, that's what I'm feeling right now. Exams are over and so is school. I'm free till next year where I'll start a new chapter in my life. I'm not quite ready for it. I don't want to lose my current friends especially my two best friends. They mean a lot to me. And if I were to lose them, that would really put a dent in my life. I just want to spend the remainder of my break just hanging out with them and have some fun before I start college. Somehow or rather, I'm not really looking forward to starting a new life.

Reckless and Relentless

Had a great two days with the two besties yesterday and today. I kinda missed them already. It was great fun just being ourselves and doing things that we loved doing. Didn't sleep for the whole night. And it was just really fun. The constant laughing, the giggles and the snores. I would miss all that. It feels kinda quiet without them now. But I'm looking forward to the days where I can hangout with them all day and just be as reckless as we can be to enjoy life and just be happy.

Two Worlds

You know what sucks the most? When your own mother compares your friend to another friend. It feels like you don't respect my decision on who I choose to be my friends. Please don't compare them to my previous ones. The ones who told me that they would always be there for me, ended up leaving me. So what's the point of being friends with those kind of people? I know you don't really like it when I hangout with them cause of your first impression on them. But please respect my decisions.

Tearing Me Apart

I really hate this feeling of jealousy. I mean is it even normal in the first place? He's only my friend nothing more than that which means that he has every right to flirt or be with any girl that he wants to. And that would be the moment when I have to let him go. I'm not ready for that. Had a little argument when I found out that this friend of his wanted to study with him. I have nothing against him going but jealousy sets in. Cause I still remembered that moment when I saw him with that girl and it's like a nightmare all over again if that were to happen. Seeing him so happy with that girl, it broke my heart cause all I could do was just sit and stare. It's like I meant nothing to him that time. It's my feeling of insecurities and jealousy that's causing me to be like this. And I hate it. I have no right to control his life so why should I care in the first place right? I guess I'm just a selfish person that wants him all to myself. But the truth is, I'm just afraid that he would find someone prettier, smarter, funnier and better than me. I just wish he knew how much he means to me.

One In A Million

Today was a great day. Spent time with the friends and it was definitely a much needed break. Did all those crazy things and it made me realize how much I really don't want to lose them. Or part ways with them. Especially my two best friends. How much they really mean to me. They've always been there for me and I'm really thankful for that. They're definitely one in a million. This short post is dedicated to the both of them. Thank you so much guys. Love you lots.