All My Heart

One of the things that hurt the most is the feeling of unrequited love. To like a person so much but to only find out that there could be nothing more between the both of you other than friendship. Friendship is more important than relationship. For a relationship can break a friendship and can cause even two of the greatest friends to drift apart. That is what I  fear the most. I do not want my feelings to get in between our friendship. Yes, I have been pining for you for a long time but I value our friendship more than anything. I do not want to lose you. Becoming friends with you was the greatest feeling ever and I do not want anything to get in our way especially not my feelings. Falling for your best friend is not ideal at all. You expect something more than friendship but the other party would only look at you as a friend and nothing more. Some are luckier but maybe not for me. My friend said I should follow my heart. But what is my heart saying? To hold on even though it hurts a lot until the right time. I know I am still young and I have a long way ahead of me but sometimes I wish that at least I can have the chance to know how it feels like to love a person. That is all I could ask for. If he is the guy for me then let it be. If he is not then I would know that it was great to just have him as a part of my life. I just wish that I can be the reason for his smile, the reason he wakes up happy every morning, the last person  he thinks of at night and the person that changed his life. But those are all wishful thinking. Who am I kidding? That is just too much to ask for. But I just wish that I could have his heart like he did to mine without him even knowing it.