Smile :)

School day today. Nothing much happened in school. I thought by going to school, it would make me think less of you, but I was wrong. You would never leave my mind no matter where I am. Just when I thought my day couldn't get worst, there you were. Walking with a big smile on your face. Seeing your smile just makes my day. And just like that all my worries fade away. When you saw me and gave me a smile, I swore that there were a million butterflies in my stomach. It's like the angels sent you there to make my day. And thinking back, I wish I am fortunate to see your smile everyday but alas that could only happen in my dreams.

Smiling is infectious,
You can catch it like the flu.
Someone smiled at me today,
And I started smiling too.

Forgetting You...

It hurts to breathe because every breath I take proves I can't live without you.
To fall in love is awfully simple, but to fall out of love is simply awful.
A life with love will have some thorns, but a life without love will have no roses.
Reject your sense of injury and the injury itself disappears.
The greatest pain that comes from love is loving someone you can never have.
Trying to forget someone you love is like trying to remember someone you never knew.
The stupidest mistake in life is thinking the one who hurt you the most, won't hurt you again.
The way to love anything is to realize that it might be lost.
Love is unconditional, relationships are not.
For all sad words of tongue and pen, the saddest are these,
It might have been...

Someone Like You...

That very first day that we met
It’s a feeling I’ll never forget.
All the experiences that we’ve shared,
I knew right away that you were rare.
You see, it’s hard to find a someone like you,
Usually they’re too good to be true.
Though I should’ve entered with more ration,
But with you I felt so much passion.
I wish those things had never happened.
It feels as though my love’s been abandoned.
All I wanted was to make you happy,
So why is it that I have to feel so crappy?
I want nothing more than for us to move on,
But it’s so hard now that the trust is gone.
I want to get past this, I really do…
What can I do to make you be true?
My love for you is like an undying flame.
And I once wished for our love to remain.
Do you remember that day, the day that it snowed?
It’s the day that I wished for our love to grow.
You hurt me that night, you need to know that you did.
And I need you to know that I can forgive.
But I’m really struggling with trying to forget,
Because I still feel the same as that first day we met.

-elivyan-

Dream a Little Dream...

Can't believe that time flew by so fast. Just a week ago we were having fun together with you showing your tricks to me. I didn't want to admit it but you were really good with what you did. But that was all a distant memory. The times that we spent together will not repeat itself in the future, it will forever remain etched in my memory. I wish I had never met you, then I would not have to face all this confusion. If only, I wasn't send to that place then my life would be back to how it was before. But looking back, you changed me. You made my life more colourful and you taught me something valuable. " There are no winners here because we are all winners " those were the exact words that you muttered. You made me realized that winning is not everything and how important friendship really is. Though we did not know each other for long, I still value the friendship that we formed in the short period of 4 days. I regretted never telling you how much I appreciated your company and how you made this such a memorable experience. Regret for the things we did can be tempered by time; it is regret for the things we did not do that is inconsolable. Yes, I regretted it but I guess it would have been better if I didn't tell you. I just pray that one day when I look back upon this memories, there will be no more regrets because I want it to be an everlasting memory. Alas, I can only hope to dream a little dream...

Feelings

Have you ever felt that you don't ever wanna wake up from your dream cause it's just too beautiful? I've felt that way so many times ever since you made your way into my dreams. Sometimes I wish that the dreams that I dreamed are my reality cause then you would know how I truly feel for you. But alas, dreams are just the games of the mind. In my dreams, you knew how I feel and it was just great that I don't have to bottle up all my emotions in my heart. And I won't have to cry for you every single night like this. You're the first and last thing I think of every single day and it hurts me cause you will never know how I feel for you. Thinking back to the first time I met you, I totally hated you. Weird isn't it how this feelings can change in a matter of months. And now I'm totally taken back by you. Everything that we did together leaves a mark in my heart.The simple touches, the simple one word sentences all means a lot to me. But I know I can never have you because what I have for you is just a simple crush. It takes a minute to have a crush on someone, an hour to love someone but a lifetime to forget about someone...

Just came back from Subang. It was ok and yeah my feelings are so mixed up right now, I don't even know what to say. If I don't write it down, I might explode. Have you ever felt that everything was just going ok with your life but then everything changes just by the presence of someone? I thought my life was going okay, but then he came. And it stirred new feelings in me. It doesn't help the fact that I like another guy. I'm so bloody confused right now cause technically, I can't stop thinking about him :( I tried and after today's event gahh, I don't even know what to say. I just wish I can walk up to him and tell him how I feel just to get it out but I can't cause that would ruin our friendship. So now, I like two people at the same time and that is not cool with me. I feel like crying right now cause no one seems to understand how I'm feeling right now...

Just came back from Supercamp! It was damn awesome! Technically, i cried yesterday cause I really missed all my friends that I made there. I know kinda lame in a way. Omg, I'm so going again next year. That's for sure but it won't be the same without the same team and the people that made it awesome. Gahh, am already missing all of them :'(