Insecurities

I hate that feeling of feeling insecure and in doubts over everything. I just tend to over think about everything which is not a good thing. Nothing is actually happening between the both of us but it just got me to over think this whole thing. Tomorrow will be a month since we confessed to each other. I know I'm lame for keeping tabs but I'm a girl so that's to be expected. Another month closer to be with you. I should stop worrying and focus on my studies instead. Mama and Papa are not pleased with me since they think I'm falling deeper in love with him so I'm gonna prove them wrong. It feels kinda disappointing that they don't trust me but what hurts is that they won't even tell me anything and seems to be like pointing fingers to him because of my lack of interest in studying right now. You should never blame him. If there's a person who should be blame, it should be me so please stop making him look like the bad guy. I'm the one who's falling too hard and too fast.