Dear God

Okay, I know it's like forever since I last updated but I was really busy. A whole lot of things happened in July. First, was the hangout. Last Friday, the four of us hung out like usual but this time it was for breaking fast. I dunno what my exact feelings were on that day but I guess I was the happiest person alive. My crush made it and I guess it was one of the best moment of my life where I got to just be there with him. And when he held my hand, it was indescribable. It was everything I've always wanted. His hand was so warm and it made me feel safe. Waking up beside him was like finally realizing that it was not a dream. But too bad that we would only remain as friends. And today, he showed another side of him. The caring side. He lend me his hoodie cause I was cold and it was really sweet and if I could I would totally bring his hoodie back home with me but I can't cause I don't think that's what friends do. I dunno what are we exactly? Are we friends or are we a bit more than that? Cause we've been texting nearly everyday now and I really don't want it to stop. You're always on my mind and I know that I'm nothing more than just a friend to you. Dear God, sometimes I wonder why would you let us meet knowing that nothing will come out of it?