All My Heart

One of the things that hurt the most is the feeling of unrequited love. To like a person so much but to only find out that there could be nothing more between the both of you other than friendship. Friendship is more important than relationship. For a relationship can break a friendship and can cause even two of the greatest friends to drift apart. That is what I  fear the most. I do not want my feelings to get in between our friendship. Yes, I have been pining for you for a long time but I value our friendship more than anything. I do not want to lose you. Becoming friends with you was the greatest feeling ever and I do not want anything to get in our way especially not my feelings. Falling for your best friend is not ideal at all. You expect something more than friendship but the other party would only look at you as a friend and nothing more. Some are luckier but maybe not for me. My friend said I should follow my heart. But what is my heart saying? To hold on even though it hurts a lot until the right time. I know I am still young and I have a long way ahead of me but sometimes I wish that at least I can have the chance to know how it feels like to love a person. That is all I could ask for. If he is the guy for me then let it be. If he is not then I would know that it was great to just have him as a part of my life. I just wish that I can be the reason for his smile, the reason he wakes up happy every morning, the last person  he thinks of at night and the person that changed his life. But those are all wishful thinking. Who am I kidding? That is just too much to ask for. But I just wish that I could have his heart like he did to mine without him even knowing it.

Stick Wit U

I guess you can't say that things are not what it seems right now. I feel like there is no point in me putting my hopes up anymore cause in the end it would come crashing down. And please do not promise me anything if you cannot fulfil it. Cause I do not want to look forward to false hope. It has been going on for far too long. And I really do not feel like going anywhere at all. I just do not feel like going after this whole thing so you cannot force me to when I really do not want to. But no matter what I will stick with you till the very end.

Try

I am getting tired of everything. I have nothing to look forward to anymore even though it is the new year. Yes it is already 2013. It is always the same thing day in and day out. I wanna get a job but at the same time I am kinda lazy to go to work but I need the cash. I dunno why but my life feels kinda empty right now. Like last year I still had school and tuition and I get to see my friends nearly every single day. But now I feel all alone. I guess you can say that I miss school and all its drama. I would do anything just to turn back time but alas there is nothing that I could do to turn back time. I dunno what to do right now. I am so not looking forward to starting a whole new life. I never expected everything to end so soon. But I guess I just have to try and move on with my life.