So Damn Clever

I guess it's been a really tough week for me. Yeah, a few good things happened but I never felt like this before. The moments that I had with him just makes me forget about this whole thing, about the pain that I feel inside of me, the uncertainties, the insecurities and most of all, myself. My parents especially my dad is being really harsh to me. I'm a teenager please don't control my life. I know that I'm only 17 and naive but please. I know you're worried about me but everything would be alright. You have no idea how much this affected me okay? Having sleepless nights and been losing my appetite just thinking about it. I wish I have nothing to worry about anymore. I wish I can be a little girl again where I don;t have to worry about anything and anyone and where I'm able to be myself and no one can say no.