I Just Can't

I close my eyes,

And see you by my side.

I turn to sigh,

You're beauty gives me life.

I slightly smile,

To thank the God above the skies.

And slowly wish,

And slowly wish,

This dream to never come to end.

Cause I know…

I just can't…

I just can't kiss you,

The way I really want to.

I just can't hold you,

The way I need you here with me.

I just can't touch you,

The way I want it all to be.

I just can't love you,

I just can't…

I watch to see,

In silence, without you catching me.

I tried to hide,

The feelings I keep inside.

I wait patiently,

Continue life so specially.

And cry to sleep,

And cry to sleep,

That someday'll turnout to be.

Cause I know…

I just can't…

I just can't kiss you,

The way I really want to.

I just can't hold you,

The way I need you here with me.

I just can't touch you,

The way I want it all to be.

I just can't love you,

I just can't…

I walk away,

Forget my heart and what it says.

I turn to leave,

And never walk you're path again.

I say good-bye,

Erase all memories inside.

I'll be gone,

I'll be gone,

Forever from your side.

Cause I know…

I just can't…

I just can't kiss you,

The way I really want to.

I just can't hold you,

The way I need you here with me.

I just can't touch you,

The way I want it all to be.

I just can't love you,

I just can't…

Though it hurts,

Though I hate this feeling,

I just can't ignore it.

Though it hurts,

Though I hate this feeling,

I just can't turn around.

Cause I know…

I just can't…

I just can't kiss you,

The way I really want to.

I just can't hold you,

The way I need you here with me.

I just can't touch you,

The way I want it all to be.

I just can't love you,

I just can't…

Got this from Fan Fiction, written by kr kill. This poem really means a lot...

Went out yesterday and saw you. Seeing your face just puts a smile on my face. The first person that greeted me when I arrived inside the hall was you. That just made my day and I just realized how much I missed seeing your smile and the secret handshake that you showed me. I'm sorry that I didn't get to do the handshake with you. I saw the dissapointment in your face and I'm really sorry. But I managed to make you laugh and that was all I need to see the smile go back to your face. I really missed the fun times we had together. You might not know it but it means a lot to me. I didn't get to say goodbye to you, and I regretted that. I really hope I can meet you again cause I don't want my fragile heart to ever break again...

Enchanted

This is me praying that this was the very first page
Not where the story line ends
My thoughts will echo your name until I see you again
These are the words I held back as I was leaving too soon
I was enchanted to meet you too
Please don't be in love with someone else
Please don't have somebody waiting on you
Please don't be in love with someone else
Please don't have somebody waiting on you...

I just wish you knew how I felt for you...

Missing You.

I miss you like the deserts miss the rain,
almost gone on a wilderness campaign.
I miss you like the trees the sun in winter,
Come back and be their electrostatic printer.

Bring back the days of laughter,
Abandon whatsoever you quest after.
Make gone this total eclipse;
Blow the darkness with the rays from your lips.

Come back and once more let's meander,
be the mistress, my heart's commander.
Don't abandon your fleet to sink,
Come to my rescue, save without a wink.

Erase the thoughts from that awful night;
Make its thought be gone on a one-way flight.
Don't make it stay like an indelible ink,
but erase from the memory with an eye's blink.

Let a fresh start be at hand,
Let the flowers blossom on this cultivated land.
Let your smile be the rays and love its fertilizer,
Let your hand be the source for a neutralizer.

If only you could see past this eclipse,
look at the brighter future with a glimpse.
No procrastination, but hope,
and prayers just like the pope.

Then we will begin anew,
Let love be the binding glue.
Let it flow its course and run,
and the future will tell in the long run.

- Calley @ krysty -

Three weeks had passed. I can't believe I'm actually counting. Hmm, I was hoping to meet you today but I guess I can't make it. I actually got distracted for once when Shue was talking about JBOD or Justin Bieber Obsessive Disorder. Then, got distracted the same day when my dad brought a French foreigner into the car. He was cute but I wished it was you. Haha, I guess it's kinda lame that sometimes I wish everything that happened to me with other people is actually happening with you. I guess it's true when they say trying to forget someone you love is like trying to remember someone you never met...

Silent Love...

Have you ever been silently in love
With someone you can never have?
So close you can touch his hand
Yet, so far to feel his heart?

Have you ever lived in pretense
Quietly loving without any condition?
A feeling of love that's unknown
Hiding it, not knowing for how long.

Have you ever fallen deeply
Loving the person unconditionally?
So afraid to say what you feel
Acting normal, keeping things still.

Have you ever been hurt unintentionally
But put on a smile, pretended to be happy?
Deep inside you're in pain and suffering
But outside you're jolly and laughing.

Why does holding his hand feel so right?
Your heart smiles everytime he's at sight
Hearing his sweet voice makes your day
Hope you can hug him in a special way.

Author: Reden Magpantay Jobli

Smile :)

School day today. Nothing much happened in school. I thought by going to school, it would make me think less of you, but I was wrong. You would never leave my mind no matter where I am. Just when I thought my day couldn't get worst, there you were. Walking with a big smile on your face. Seeing your smile just makes my day. And just like that all my worries fade away. When you saw me and gave me a smile, I swore that there were a million butterflies in my stomach. It's like the angels sent you there to make my day. And thinking back, I wish I am fortunate to see your smile everyday but alas that could only happen in my dreams.

Smiling is infectious,
You can catch it like the flu.
Someone smiled at me today,
And I started smiling too.

Forgetting You...

It hurts to breathe because every breath I take proves I can't live without you.
To fall in love is awfully simple, but to fall out of love is simply awful.
A life with love will have some thorns, but a life without love will have no roses.
Reject your sense of injury and the injury itself disappears.
The greatest pain that comes from love is loving someone you can never have.
Trying to forget someone you love is like trying to remember someone you never knew.
The stupidest mistake in life is thinking the one who hurt you the most, won't hurt you again.
The way to love anything is to realize that it might be lost.
Love is unconditional, relationships are not.
For all sad words of tongue and pen, the saddest are these,
It might have been...

Someone Like You...

That very first day that we met
It’s a feeling I’ll never forget.
All the experiences that we’ve shared,
I knew right away that you were rare.
You see, it’s hard to find a someone like you,
Usually they’re too good to be true.
Though I should’ve entered with more ration,
But with you I felt so much passion.
I wish those things had never happened.
It feels as though my love’s been abandoned.
All I wanted was to make you happy,
So why is it that I have to feel so crappy?
I want nothing more than for us to move on,
But it’s so hard now that the trust is gone.
I want to get past this, I really do…
What can I do to make you be true?
My love for you is like an undying flame.
And I once wished for our love to remain.
Do you remember that day, the day that it snowed?
It’s the day that I wished for our love to grow.
You hurt me that night, you need to know that you did.
And I need you to know that I can forgive.
But I’m really struggling with trying to forget,
Because I still feel the same as that first day we met.

-elivyan-

Dream a Little Dream...

Can't believe that time flew by so fast. Just a week ago we were having fun together with you showing your tricks to me. I didn't want to admit it but you were really good with what you did. But that was all a distant memory. The times that we spent together will not repeat itself in the future, it will forever remain etched in my memory. I wish I had never met you, then I would not have to face all this confusion. If only, I wasn't send to that place then my life would be back to how it was before. But looking back, you changed me. You made my life more colourful and you taught me something valuable. " There are no winners here because we are all winners " those were the exact words that you muttered. You made me realized that winning is not everything and how important friendship really is. Though we did not know each other for long, I still value the friendship that we formed in the short period of 4 days. I regretted never telling you how much I appreciated your company and how you made this such a memorable experience. Regret for the things we did can be tempered by time; it is regret for the things we did not do that is inconsolable. Yes, I regretted it but I guess it would have been better if I didn't tell you. I just pray that one day when I look back upon this memories, there will be no more regrets because I want it to be an everlasting memory. Alas, I can only hope to dream a little dream...

Feelings

Have you ever felt that you don't ever wanna wake up from your dream cause it's just too beautiful? I've felt that way so many times ever since you made your way into my dreams. Sometimes I wish that the dreams that I dreamed are my reality cause then you would know how I truly feel for you. But alas, dreams are just the games of the mind. In my dreams, you knew how I feel and it was just great that I don't have to bottle up all my emotions in my heart. And I won't have to cry for you every single night like this. You're the first and last thing I think of every single day and it hurts me cause you will never know how I feel for you. Thinking back to the first time I met you, I totally hated you. Weird isn't it how this feelings can change in a matter of months. And now I'm totally taken back by you. Everything that we did together leaves a mark in my heart.The simple touches, the simple one word sentences all means a lot to me. But I know I can never have you because what I have for you is just a simple crush. It takes a minute to have a crush on someone, an hour to love someone but a lifetime to forget about someone...

Just came back from Subang. It was ok and yeah my feelings are so mixed up right now, I don't even know what to say. If I don't write it down, I might explode. Have you ever felt that everything was just going ok with your life but then everything changes just by the presence of someone? I thought my life was going okay, but then he came. And it stirred new feelings in me. It doesn't help the fact that I like another guy. I'm so bloody confused right now cause technically, I can't stop thinking about him :( I tried and after today's event gahh, I don't even know what to say. I just wish I can walk up to him and tell him how I feel just to get it out but I can't cause that would ruin our friendship. So now, I like two people at the same time and that is not cool with me. I feel like crying right now cause no one seems to understand how I'm feeling right now...

Just came back from Supercamp! It was damn awesome! Technically, i cried yesterday cause I really missed all my friends that I made there. I know kinda lame in a way. Omg, I'm so going again next year. That's for sure but it won't be the same without the same team and the people that made it awesome. Gahh, am already missing all of them :'(