I Wish This Poem Were Pixie Dust

I wish this poem were pixie dust
To throw into your eyes
And make you see the loveliness
Beneath my sad disguise.

And I would take you in my arms
And weave a magic spell
That I could utter anytime
To make you love me well.

But alas my simple words
Are like summer rain
That drums on hills and fields and hearts,
Then vanishes again.

And though my love might make you bloom,
You turn with fragile grace
To gaze in aching loneliness
At someone else's face.

We lust for what we cannot have,
A long, unbroken chain
Of lovers who remain unloved
And loved who love in vain.

While I'm near mad with wanting you
As trees must have the sun,
You cannot help but find a love
Who loves another one.

-Nicholas Gordon-

Love Sucks...

It hurts when the person that you like dunno how you feel about them. You tend to do all this crazy stuff for them but they don't even know it. That's exactly what's hapening to me right now. I shouldn't have put my hopes up too high knowing it would never happen. God, I'm such a fucking idiot! I shouldn't have followed my friend if not I wouldn't have met you and my life won't be this miserable. Thanks to you, I can't even think straight cause you're the only one that I think about, and at night I can't sleep just thinking of you and sometimes I stayed up just to look up at the midnight sky and hope that you're looking at the exact same thing as me. And I have a particular song that reminds me of you. And sometimes I wish a shooting star exists so that I can wish upon a star. But dreams are only meant to be fantasies and nothing more. If only you know how I feel for you...

School reopens tomorrow and I'm so fucking lazy to go =.= haihs I wish holidays can be forever. So watched Big Momma and Battle: Los Angeles. The first novie was god-awful funny but the second movie makes me wanna bite my nails for god knows what reason. So, I can't help falling for this one person and it's fucking killing me cause I can't help thinking about that person. I sound lovesick though. =.= And I think it's weird cause I keep on smiling to myself because I'm thinking of that person...

Holidays are finally here!!! I can finally sleep, eat, play games, online till the wee hours of the morning and watch tv as much as I want!!! Yahoo!!! Anyways, exams are finally over and I'm so glad. Went for probationer's seminar today. It was kinda boring at first but it became fun when the time came for the group activity. Met a lot of new people though. And I feel so devastated just looking at the pictures of the disaster that happened in Japan. I hope that they will be alright. Condolences to them. Till the next time. Chao.

Omigod I'm so freaking out right now!!! Exams are like next week and I'm so not prepared for it! Gaah, I'm still freaking out. Won't be updating for a while now. Chao.