i've finally cooled down. temporarily. hmm so i didn't buy the tickets for world stage though the offer was too tempting. instead i went out to kl with my sister and ended up watching inception again. i think i'm obsessed with that movie or something. it's way better than eclipse eventhough i love taylor lautner. i wouldn't mind watching it for 20 times cause i don't think i'll ever be sick of it. so geogy bought me the converse shoes that i wanted so badly. the german one. haha finally got the size. so now i'm currently saving up my money to buy the jacket. that's why i didn't buy the tickets. -.- so i think that's all. chao.

feeling pissed in a way. dunno what's up with people nowadays.why must people change the whole time? sometimes i'm so sick of it. i don't like it when people tend to keep secrets away when you thought that the person trusts you. hmm i thought wrong. and i know when people are keeping secrets away from me. in a way i feel like i'm being used. when there's a problem i'm always the person they come to find if not i'm just nobody. haihs but that's life. what to do. life is unfair. i'm only writing this cause i feel pissed that's all. just need to release out my anger.

P.S. Shue i know ur not over ***, i'm not blind you know. no offense but i'm sick of it already. you're with ***** now so forget about ***. I don't want you to go hurt another person's feelings. *** has a different life right now and ***'s only doing this for your own good. So get a life!!! not trying to be rude or anything but i'm merely stating the truth. Sorry if this sounds harsh to you.

After much begging and puppy dog-eyes, I'm finally able to go for La Salle's installation!!! Yay!!! So anyways, school is boring as usual. Everyone's busy doing stuff for Pn. Hong's retirement. Haihs that means 1 whole day in the hall doing nothing, as usual. So i still miss football. Have no idea why but have been watching the sports channel a lot lately especially the Eurosports. Anyways, UEFA is starting on August 18th!!! at 2.40 a.m. -.- I have trials on that day but if it's not my team playing then I'm not bothered. Hahaha. K lar gtg now. Chao.

my feet fucking hurt after a long day wearing court shoes. after that went to amcorp with aiman and megat. had a great time though i was complaining too much about how much my foot hurts. sorry guys!!! i'll make up for it :) so yeah ate a lot as usual and aiman it's not funny to cry over a married footballer -.- and i do not look like a tupai you hamster.. haha so now i'm officially Int. Siti Aidilina. hahaha damn proud. moving on, i'm kinda pissed with somebody right now. always pms-ing every single day. geez, don't take it too hard lar. ok lar, will update soon. chao.

i miss football!!!! i can't go a day without talking about football and i think my whole family is sick of it not to mention my friends. hahaha. anyways installation is in less than 3 days and i can't seem to get the song in my head. everytime i memorise one line and goes on to the next i'll forget the previous line that i just memorised -.- so i find the ban on the manchester united jersey pretty dumb. dude it's a free country. since when did they care about all this before? now only they're coming out of nowhere. it's causing a major uproar and don't come and tell me now that i have to burn my t-shirts with MU on it or the ones with the great britain flag. -..- sometimes i don't get people..

i'm kinda looking forward for the interact installation. haha. well football is officially over and i feel so emo rite now. haha. no more annoyin my sister with the sounds of vuvuzelas on tv, no more screamin when germany scored. it was a gud ting i watched their last match against argentina yesterday. their last match till the next four years.sob sob haha i was so rite wen i told myself to watch football yesterday. hahaha. god i missed football already. never mind EPL is coming up. hahaha. owh great now my sis is trying to imitate the sounds of the vuvuzelas.

HEARTBROKEN

i feel so heartbroken right now. been cryin for the past two days for somethin so tiny. isn't it stupid to cry over a footballer who got married?? well for me its not. i had a crush on him ever since 4 years ago and it juz came out of the blue when they showed he got married. i feel sad, dissapointed, crushed and happy. its like a mixed feeling like rojak. haihs i know he doesn't even know me but he played a big role in my life. but seeing him happy makes me happy to think that he finally found the right one to spend his life with. hmm, maybe i should find myself a boyfriend...

lifeless and dead that's how i feel right now. after world cup i got nothing to look forward to not even the installation. haihs that's just how hooked i am on football. omigod!!! school was boring. i feel like there's no point in me going to school anymore. none of the teachers came into class. so pmrs like in 84 days i tink and im not studyin at all. all i can think about is football. sob sob. well im gonna chao now. i wanna cry over football again.

BYE BYE WORLD CUP

i can't seem to cry yesterday eventho it was germany's last match. they won over uruguay 3-2!!! it was a tough match but they pulled it off thanks to Mueller, Jansen and Khedira. so yea i watched eclipse last night and it was ok lar. but it was too mushy for me and i dun like it. and i really dun like bella for what she did to jacob. haihs back to football, tonight's match is netherlands vs spain and i hope netherlands win tonite!!! but i'll always support germany!!! germany will always be in my heart :) so goodbye world cup, i'll see u in the next 4 years!!! god i feel like i have nothing to look forward to anymore now that it's over. no more staying up late to watch football, no more hearing my mum nagging me to study instead of watchin football, no more wakin up lookin like a panda, no more drawin the german flag on my hand, no more arguing with my classmates who's gonna win the match, no more " do u know i luv philipp lahm? " juz to annoy my sister (but trust me i'm really obsess with him) and lastly no more screaming " GERMANY!!! " at the top of my lungs every single day. gonna cry my eyes out for the next 4 years, :'( so goodbye world cup.. im gonna miss it for a very long time...

its been so long since i fuckin updated so yeah germany won over argentina 4-0 but lost to spain 0-1. sob sob but i know they can win over uruguay coz i have faith in them. haha so got my interact uniform and went for lit nite yesterday nite. it was ok i gez but i couldn't hear a thing they say -.- then hang out at a&w and mamak stall. so im gona watch eclipse tonite and later at 230 ill be crying my eyes out coz its germany's last match!!! i wont see them again for the next 4 years and ill be 19 by then.... and i can't annoy my sis anymore with " do u know i luv philipp lahm " sob sob.. i miss those days...