All My Heart

One of the things that hurt the most is the feeling of unrequited love. To like a person so much but to only find out that there could be nothing more between the both of you other than friendship. Friendship is more important than relationship. For a relationship can break a friendship and can cause even two of the greatest friends to drift apart. That is what I  fear the most. I do not want my feelings to get in between our friendship. Yes, I have been pining for you for a long time but I value our friendship more than anything. I do not want to lose you. Becoming friends with you was the greatest feeling ever and I do not want anything to get in our way especially not my feelings. Falling for your best friend is not ideal at all. You expect something more than friendship but the other party would only look at you as a friend and nothing more. Some are luckier but maybe not for me. My friend said I should follow my heart. But what is my heart saying? To hold on even though it hurts a lot until the right time. I know I am still young and I have a long way ahead of me but sometimes I wish that at least I can have the chance to know how it feels like to love a person. That is all I could ask for. If he is the guy for me then let it be. If he is not then I would know that it was great to just have him as a part of my life. I just wish that I can be the reason for his smile, the reason he wakes up happy every morning, the last person  he thinks of at night and the person that changed his life. But those are all wishful thinking. Who am I kidding? That is just too much to ask for. But I just wish that I could have his heart like he did to mine without him even knowing it.

Stick Wit U

I guess you can't say that things are not what it seems right now. I feel like there is no point in me putting my hopes up anymore cause in the end it would come crashing down. And please do not promise me anything if you cannot fulfil it. Cause I do not want to look forward to false hope. It has been going on for far too long. And I really do not feel like going anywhere at all. I just do not feel like going after this whole thing so you cannot force me to when I really do not want to. But no matter what I will stick with you till the very end.

Try

I am getting tired of everything. I have nothing to look forward to anymore even though it is the new year. Yes it is already 2013. It is always the same thing day in and day out. I wanna get a job but at the same time I am kinda lazy to go to work but I need the cash. I dunno why but my life feels kinda empty right now. Like last year I still had school and tuition and I get to see my friends nearly every single day. But now I feel all alone. I guess you can say that I miss school and all its drama. I would do anything just to turn back time but alas there is nothing that I could do to turn back time. I dunno what to do right now. I am so not looking forward to starting a whole new life. I never expected everything to end so soon. But I guess I just have to try and move on with my life.

Live Like We're Dying

So the world is suppose to end tomorrow according to the Mayans and the people that believed the prophecy. As for me, well it'll just be a normal Friday where I'm going to hangout with my friends to celebrate my bestie's birthday. Turning seventeen at last. I can say that time flew by so fast like just two weeks ago I was just done with my last exam paper and here I am planning my outing for tomorrow. I duno what the future holds for me but I hope the people that I care about will be in it. I guess that's all for now. If the world is gonna end tomorrow well I can say that I had a great year behind me. And I'm gonna live it like it's my last day.

Angel To You ( Devil To Me )

I dunno why but I just feel like dedicating this post to my best friend. I know it's kinda lame but I can't help it cause I miss him a lot. So why the title? well, let's see. The first time I met him, he looked like the most innocent thing on the face of this planet. He was quiet and shy and not at all talkative. But that totally changed when I got to know him better. He's a loud and bubbly person and fun to be around with. He's shy to the people that he'd never met before and would just keep his mouth shut. That's why to most people he's like an angel. But whenever he's around me well he's a totally different person. he's totally himself and I know that I can be myself in front of him too without having the fear of getting criticized or looked down upon. I'm very lucky to have met a great friend like him. He's my thunder buddy and I totally appreciate it. I hope our friendship can last all the way through all the obstacles that would come our way cause what ship never sinks? Friendship. Thank you for always being there for me whenever I feel like I'm alone in this world and thank you for understanding me. I love you thunder buddy and I hope we stay friends forever. Thunder buddies for life!

I Miss You

You know the feeling you get when you miss someone terribly and you can't do anything about it? Yeah, that's what I'm feeling right now. Exams are over and so is school. I'm free till next year where I'll start a new chapter in my life. I'm not quite ready for it. I don't want to lose my current friends especially my two best friends. They mean a lot to me. And if I were to lose them, that would really put a dent in my life. I just want to spend the remainder of my break just hanging out with them and have some fun before I start college. Somehow or rather, I'm not really looking forward to starting a new life.

Reckless and Relentless

Had a great two days with the two besties yesterday and today. I kinda missed them already. It was great fun just being ourselves and doing things that we loved doing. Didn't sleep for the whole night. And it was just really fun. The constant laughing, the giggles and the snores. I would miss all that. It feels kinda quiet without them now. But I'm looking forward to the days where I can hangout with them all day and just be as reckless as we can be to enjoy life and just be happy.