Stole My Heart

Monday again. School was normal today. Then headed out to KL and now I dunno why I feel kinda anxious like something's about to happen but I dunno what which is causing me to have a minor panic attack. Moving on, I dunno how to describe my feeling right now. I had this long talk with my sister about my crush and I know this sounds kinda corny but I can't imagine going to college and meeting someone new cause I only want him. I guess you can say that I wish we can go to the same college. And the suckiest part is I can't hangout with him this Friday since I have installation and it's the last day before fasting month starts! I really love my life. There goes my chance of spending time with the guy who clearly stole my heart.

Save you Tonight

Had a really weird dream last night. I dreamed that it was the zombie apocalypse. I blamed the Resident Evil trailer. Well, it started like this. I went to the  movies with my friends and I wanted to get in the elevator to go home when a police came and stopped me, god knows why. Then the whole elevator was crowded suddenly with people trying to flee and I still didn't know what was going on at that time. When I got out from the elevator the whole place was on fire and I was trying my best to get to the car while trying to avoid fireballs? Okay, that part must have been from Hunger Games. Then, my mum drove off the car and I met my friends who were on their way to escape too. Then, it flew to another point of view, where a group of my friends were stuck in a shop and had to battle the zombies and one of them got stabbed but was still alive, then it flew back to my point of view where I got down from the car and was freaking happy to see my crush still alive. I mean seriously? Apparently he was trying to escape the zombies too. Omigod, what the hell is wrong with my brain?

Same Mistakes

Saturday. And I'm not going anywhere thanks to my stomach cramp. Thank you so much monthlies. I still can't get over the whole incident. I'm not the type of person who forgive and forget. Yup, I tend to keep my emotions to myself cause I just happened to be that type of girl. I dunno what else to write since I'm really in no mood to talk about it.

Everything About You

I guess it's kinda sad that I didn't get to spend that much time with you this week but it's okay at least I still get to be your friend. Moving on. I just wanna voice my dissatisfaction. You're like one of my closest friend ever and I totally appreciate for everything that you've done for me but then by you saying something to me that kinda hurt my feeling well, it's a totally different story. I admit I don't have any feelings for you and by not answering I might have given you false hope but thinking this whole thing is a joke is totally not cool with me. I might be smiling like an idiot but deep down it's like a sword just pierced through my heart. Yeah, that's how much it hurt. It might be nothing to you, but I have feelings too you know. But maybe you don't get that part. Owh and I dunno if this is true or not but if you think that by finding  replacement would help you get over something then go ahead and be the same thing that you accuse me of. Just saying. If you stumble upon this blog entry, I just wanna say I'm sorry but I just need to let it out and besides it's my blog, I believe I can write about anything here.

I Want

Had a great ending to this week. Went for our usual bubble tea on Friday and yeah, it was one of the highlights of my week. I was a tad disappointed when he told me that he won't be coming for the IU and the carnival and honestly, I really wasn't looking forward to it at all. I know it's kinda lame when it's my own club's IU but I guess I can't helped it. But out of the blue, he showed up and I swear to God, my heart just beat a million times faster. So, we kinda hangout for a few hours and he kinda went shirtless when he was dared to get dunked and yeah, that was my first glimpse of his bldy. God, I sound like a horny teenager. Yeah, it was amazing. The feeling I had when I was closed to him and when he touched my hand even though he was wet. I really didn't feel like going back yesterday. Last night, I happened to have a dream about him where his brother revealed that he had a crush on me and everybody was kinda asking us to go for it. I really want that dream to come true. I hate this feelings that I have for you. It makes me vulnerable but happy at the same time.

Taken

Euros are officially over. Congratulations Spain for winning but next time Germany will dominate you guys. I guess now I don't have to wake up to go watch football anymore but I would totally miss every second of it though. But nothing beats missing you. If i confess, it would be weird because I don't want our friendship to be torn apart. But if I don't, then I would totally regret it. Life huh? And I can't bare the thought of you being taken by another girl. I know that I don't own you or anything but to me you're my everything.

Tell Me A Lie

I am really confused right now. My friend just confessed to me and said he has feelings for me but the truth is I only think of him as a friend and nothing more than that. I feel bad if I tell him the truth that I like another guy. The problem with the other guy is I dunno if he likes me or not. He's giving me mixed signs and I really dunno what he's thinking about. He's just really sweet and funny and my dad said if he makes me happy then he's okay with it. My life is practically so confusing right now, I don't even know what to think anymore.