I Miss You

I miss my grandpa already :'( It's been almost a week since he passed away but somehow I just can't accept the fact. There's no one else to accompany me whenever I stay up to watch football, no one to motivate me to do better in my exams, no one to make lame jokes at the dinner table, no one to argue with, no one to cook me weird food and most of all there's no more of the comforting presence knowing that my grandpa's safe and sound. But all that's gone now. I know that I'm not that close to him but he means a lot to me and I will forever miss him. I love you grandpa, may you be place among the good people. Rest in peace, I will always pray for you. Love, your granddaughter.

Holidays are finally here! Can I scream yes!!!!! So, I still hate that bitch. Haha just realized what a sore loser she really is by hanging out with the people that she hates because she doesn't have any friends. And you're the one who called me the loner. Well, I hope karma is getting back at you! All those bullshits that you've done to me yeah it's slowly making its way towards you. So since you're in camp right now, I hope everyone blatantly ignores you and realize you for who you are bitch! Phew, I feel so much better now.

It's been a long week. My "friend" is being a bitch again. Yeah, you weren't invited at all but you just barged in and yes, we did not want to hangout with you that's why we escaped from you. But blaming my friends and saying that you wanted to beat me up? That's all talk and no play bitch. You called me a coward? Hah! You're the real coward. If you have balls, you'll confront me yourself and not ask other people to do it for you. A lot of things happened between me and my crush too. We spend quite a lot of time together this week and it has got to be one of the best moments of my life knowing that he's there with me. Anyway, kinda pissed with my grandma and I'm really in no mood to talk about it.

Stole My Heart

I guess a lot kinda happened this week. My friend and I kinda made up but I'm still in doubts over her sincerity. I've been seeing him a lot and everytime I see his face it just lights up my world. I dunno if he likes this one girl but you know if she makes him happy then I'll be happy for him. But sometimes I just wish that he knows my feelings towards him. It hurts that I'm just nothing to him when he means everything to me. And since he's spending a lot of time with that girl. She's just lucky I guess. But if ever I were to find out that she hurt him then I guess I'll totally kill her or something. Unrequited love just sucks when he's not aware he was the one who stole my heart.

Karma's a Bitch

I dunno what's up with my friend. Just cause I was absent from school, she called me this bad word. I mean I'm used to it cause she calls everybody bad names but somehow this was just a bit too much. Like, I have no idea what's her problem. Maybe she doesn't have any friends that was why she's pissed with me? I dunno what the heck is she thinking inside that brain of hers all I know is that none of my friends came to school today and maybe she was all alone in school. Boo-hoo-hoo. That means you are a loner huh? Karma's a bitch and maybe it's finally making a round towards you for all the shits that you've done to me. No need to act all innocent and asking if I'm okay after our "big" fight. Yes, the whole world was against me. I lost my friends all thanks to you. Are you happy now? Yes, you succeeded in making my life a living hell, but I pulled through and here I am now. I hope you'll get what you deserved soon. And yeah by the way, the guitar is not your property. It belongs to my friend so give it back to him. You've kept it for so long already like it's already your property or something. I dunno if the guitar's safely back with him or not but all I know is that, it's not right for you to keep a person's thing for a long time and I'm still waiting for my Roxy t-shirt. Talking about you just make me sick, so I'll try my best to refrain from talking and bitching about you.

So, I won't really say a lot happened this week but I guess in a way it did. I went out on Tuesday with my friends and I was really reluctant to go at first but thank god I did if not I guess I won't get to spend time with him. I mean to him I 'm just a friend but I like him more than that and I guess you can say that it sucks that he doesn't know how I feel towards him. As much as I would love for him to know how I feel, I don't think that it's right, I mean I have a thing against his brother who just happens to be the biggest jerk on earth. Sometimes it kinda hurts that he might just talk to me because he's friends with my friend but I guessed it can't be helped. Had a dream about him last night and it felt so real, like I was really in that dream with him and my friends. I guess that's life huh? It hurts to love someone and not be loved in return, but what is the most painful is to love someone and never find the courage to let the person know how you feel.